They say that if you love somebody, let that someone go
And if that someone returns, he/she is yours, otherwise love was never meant to be.
But I ask you this, if you are already prepared to let that someone go,
This shows how important that someone is to you. Therefore,
Love was never meant to be.
The Cowboy and The Horse
One day, there was a cowboy who saw a horse by the side of a path. The horse was thirsty. Feeling pity for the horse, he walked over and gave it some water. The horse could see that the cowboy was not skilled at handling horses and he hasn't caught one by himself yet. But as the horse was thirsty, it felt no need to express any concern.
Day after day, the cowboy took care of the horse. Bringing it back into his family's barn to brush it, to feed it hay. The cowboy even bought a nice saddle for the horse. Soon, as the horse's need for water died down, the horse grew impatient. It wanted what it has always demanded from its owner.
The cowboy grew fatigued and tired from taking care of this demanding horse. He wanted to let go, but he needed the horse as it was his only form of transportation. Plus, each of his brothers had a horse.
One day, while riding on his horse clumsily, the cowboy came across another cowboy. The second cowboy was just on his way to somewhere. He was walking as his previous horse had already died. The horse was almost swinging the first cowboy off of it. The second cowboy then tried to stablize them; he managed to do so.
The first cowboy found that the second cowboy could handle the roughness of the horse. He got very angry. "Stay away from it," he yelled to the second cowboy. But the horse was already walking alongside the second cowboy.
The first cowboy then realized that the reins of the horse were still with him. He tugged. "You're still mine and you will do as I say," he shouted to the horse which was now quite a distance away. The horse knew that the first cowboy cared, but he would never accept it for who the horse was. The horse would always be tolerated.
The second cowboy wanted so much to take care of the poor horse. He knew that the horse's temperament was just as unimportant as the number of stands of mane on the horse's head. But unless the first cowboy releases the reins or the horse breaks it, he will forever be another cowboy wandering, searching for the perfect horse to take care of...
Sometimes what happens to the characters of a story are never under the control of them.
Sorry guys, life's a story, not a fairy tale. Beauty will never end up with Beast. Snow White will never be kissed by a Handsome Prince. Cinderella will never make it to the Ball.
Hurt by reality. Injured by practicality. Killed by materiality.
Broken...
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
sigh...
Sigh... I am just feeling so terrible.. wonder why... Sigh... I feel so bad... today's project I didn't achieve a single thing at all... Didn't do anything at all... so sorry guys.. so sorry...
Sigh... I can't put my emotions into words today... sorry...............
Sigh... I can't put my emotions into words today... sorry...............
feel vs logic?
I am not glad that the two of you are arguing.
I may like her, I may want to be with her,
But I will never enjoy seeing other people suffer.
I am not doing anything to your relationship.
I am not requesting fairness from you.
I do not require that. I just hope that we'll spend time as well.
Please don't use that to try to intimidate me.
Don't talk about her like she's an object.
I don't 'get' her.
If we get together, we 'choose to be together'.
I am worried that she may forget me if we don't spend time together.
But if we can forget each other so easily, what kind of happiness will we have together?
Do not make a sweeping statement.
I am not someone who is "not loyal to friends and only think of your own desires...".
I do not do this everytime, everyday.
It just happens that someone whom I like is related to you.
As you have mentioned before,
Let her make her decision and choice.
If you are unable to handle this, I recommend that you give up,
For I am sure that she'll be happier with me.
Thank you for reading if you do.
I may like her, I may want to be with her,
But I will never enjoy seeing other people suffer.
I am not doing anything to your relationship.
I am not requesting fairness from you.
I do not require that. I just hope that we'll spend time as well.
Please don't use that to try to intimidate me.
Don't talk about her like she's an object.
I don't 'get' her.
If we get together, we 'choose to be together'.
I am worried that she may forget me if we don't spend time together.
But if we can forget each other so easily, what kind of happiness will we have together?
Do not make a sweeping statement.
I am not someone who is "not loyal to friends and only think of your own desires...".
I do not do this everytime, everyday.
It just happens that someone whom I like is related to you.
As you have mentioned before,
Let her make her decision and choice.
If you are unable to handle this, I recommend that you give up,
For I am sure that she'll be happier with me.
Thank you for reading if you do.
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
ohayou gozaimasu!!!!
harlow harlow!! おはようございます。。。早安。。。Good Morning... Bonjour...
今天天气真好!^^ 多一下子我就得上学了。。。 好闷哦。。。 好想做DBMS的practical功课。。。 或则那个project。。。sigh....
Today's weather is fine！^^ I'll have to go to school in a while... So bored... I feel like doing the DBMS practical... or the project... Sigh...
今日の天気は晴れです。Haha... that's all.. I can't translate anymore -.-"...
Ok, I better get going now.. tata..
今天天气真好!^^ 多一下子我就得上学了。。。 好闷哦。。。 好想做DBMS的practical功课。。。 或则那个project。。。sigh....
Today's weather is fine！^^ I'll have to go to school in a while... So bored... I feel like doing the DBMS practical... or the project... Sigh...
今日の天気は晴れです。Haha... that's all.. I can't translate anymore -.-"...
Ok, I better get going now.. tata..
Monday, September 27, 2004
happy happy day ^^
Ha.... Firstly, at the end of the lesson at the beginning of the day, the teachers decided to give out the Visual Basic test results. Wa... how could she??!! My teacher, Miss Wong, left mine out till the last. Then when my turn finally came, I went in.
"So, Clarence, you waited for a long time, ya?"
"YA LA.. Why??"
"Oh, cause I have no problems with your test, you get a high A."
"Oh.."
"Ya, and you also topped the whole level, not the class, but the whole Diploma IT batch taking VB."
hahaha!! OMG HAPPY!! Haha... Yea.. Was kinda happy, but it was kinda expected... :P..
Second thing, I received a letter from my Japanese e-penpal! :D.. It was in this pretty envelope with stickers on the flap of the envelope. Really nice. Yup.. She even enclosed a newsletter about the area that she's living in. ^^.. Really happy to hear from her as well! :D.
Yup. Super happy.
But super irritated thanks to the stupid projects... all the stupid last minute work... Sigh... DONT CHANGE THE STUPID DATE LIAO LA.... OMG cant i even have one day to myself???? I have already moved my weds to fri. how much more do u want me to do!!!??????????? ARGH!!!
JUST GIMME THE STUPID THING LA.. DONT GIVE ME THE STUPID ATTITUDE..
Sigh.... stupid project.. had to give up weds... Today wenquan asked me one thing... he asked me, "which will u choose? project or her?" I thought about it. It's her. I will rather forsake my project. Although people may think that I'm stupid but that's my choice. Pls lor.. it's not like as if we have no time any more... It's not like as if the rest of you all did not do that before. How many times have we moved the timing cuz someone had to do something or go somewhere? Now I'm just asking for once and it's so goddamn difficult?
I'm trying my best, k? I'm not a stupid robot.. I need to rest.. I need time out.. I don't mind slogging on the project all through the night if it will just give you a peace of mind to let me miss one project meeting. Sigh... do you think that I don't want to score? I'm aiming for all distinctions as well. I want the best for everyone. Sigh.. I have already said. Weds fine I'll do the CRS project. But Friday, NO. I'll not touch DBMS on Friday. I will do the damn thing myself on Tues or Weds and show you on Thurs. It should be right. Just don't doubt me. I hate it when people doubt me...
ARGGHHHHH.... It was such a great day ok... thanks to the stupid projects which spoilt my mood... like fucking thanks man...
I'm just so damn fed-up. I'm not gonna burn the Sims 2 CD for u all already... u wan u pass me 4 cdrs and i'll burn. otherwise fuck it. It's not my problem u don't have it.
PISSED OFF.
"So, Clarence, you waited for a long time, ya?"
"YA LA.. Why??"
"Oh, cause I have no problems with your test, you get a high A."
"Oh.."
"Ya, and you also topped the whole level, not the class, but the whole Diploma IT batch taking VB."
hahaha!! OMG HAPPY!! Haha... Yea.. Was kinda happy, but it was kinda expected... :P..
Second thing, I received a letter from my Japanese e-penpal! :D.. It was in this pretty envelope with stickers on the flap of the envelope. Really nice. Yup.. She even enclosed a newsletter about the area that she's living in. ^^.. Really happy to hear from her as well! :D.
Yup. Super happy.
But super irritated thanks to the stupid projects... all the stupid last minute work... Sigh... DONT CHANGE THE STUPID DATE LIAO LA.... OMG cant i even have one day to myself???? I have already moved my weds to fri. how much more do u want me to do!!!??????????? ARGH!!!
JUST GIMME THE STUPID THING LA.. DONT GIVE ME THE STUPID ATTITUDE..
Sigh.... stupid project.. had to give up weds... Today wenquan asked me one thing... he asked me, "which will u choose? project or her?" I thought about it. It's her. I will rather forsake my project. Although people may think that I'm stupid but that's my choice. Pls lor.. it's not like as if we have no time any more... It's not like as if the rest of you all did not do that before. How many times have we moved the timing cuz someone had to do something or go somewhere? Now I'm just asking for once and it's so goddamn difficult?
I'm trying my best, k? I'm not a stupid robot.. I need to rest.. I need time out.. I don't mind slogging on the project all through the night if it will just give you a peace of mind to let me miss one project meeting. Sigh... do you think that I don't want to score? I'm aiming for all distinctions as well. I want the best for everyone. Sigh.. I have already said. Weds fine I'll do the CRS project. But Friday, NO. I'll not touch DBMS on Friday. I will do the damn thing myself on Tues or Weds and show you on Thurs. It should be right. Just don't doubt me. I hate it when people doubt me...
ARGGHHHHH.... It was such a great day ok... thanks to the stupid projects which spoilt my mood... like fucking thanks man...
I'm just so damn fed-up. I'm not gonna burn the Sims 2 CD for u all already... u wan u pass me 4 cdrs and i'll burn. otherwise fuck it. It's not my problem u don't have it.
PISSED OFF.
Sunday, September 26, 2004
to change
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
Sigh sometimes I really hope that I can change the world, or maybe just a part of it... But we all know that it isn't possible... Oh well... I hope whatever's left of it is just as good...
I really like her... in fact, I think I love her... I just miss her so so much...
Two months est a long time... but oh well, least je get to au kanojo on mecredi.. better than not being able to see her... what if she forgets about me after all this while? what if when we meet after the o's she looks at me and says, "erm.. who are u?" How?
Comment je wish that elle will etre able to make up her mind... je really wish to be avec elle...
Omg.. recently, I sound like some love-sick person... how do I explain? She's just that important to be even though we have known each other for such a short amount of time... sigh... i have always not done things properly.. this time is my one and only chance to do so..
Sigh.. i keep trying and trying to explain a feeling. How is that possible? How can we put feelings into mere words. How I wish there was a language just made to describe feelings. How wonderful the vocab will be with words describing love, passion, romance in much greater detail than any language can possibly achieve. What a beautiful language it will be...
Ah... k la.. I better be going now... sigh.. it's monday again.. boring!!
Sigh sometimes I really hope that I can change the world, or maybe just a part of it... But we all know that it isn't possible... Oh well... I hope whatever's left of it is just as good...
I really like her... in fact, I think I love her... I just miss her so so much...
Two months est a long time... but oh well, least je get to au kanojo on mecredi.. better than not being able to see her... what if she forgets about me after all this while? what if when we meet after the o's she looks at me and says, "erm.. who are u?" How?
Comment je wish that elle will etre able to make up her mind... je really wish to be avec elle...
Omg.. recently, I sound like some love-sick person... how do I explain? She's just that important to be even though we have known each other for such a short amount of time... sigh... i have always not done things properly.. this time is my one and only chance to do so..
Sigh.. i keep trying and trying to explain a feeling. How is that possible? How can we put feelings into mere words. How I wish there was a language just made to describe feelings. How wonderful the vocab will be with words describing love, passion, romance in much greater detail than any language can possibly achieve. What a beautiful language it will be...
Ah... k la.. I better be going now... sigh.. it's monday again.. boring!!
new picture gallery!!
harlow all... have just set up a picture gallery... to get to it click on the link on the right below my profile... yupyup
wa.. the other day did this presentation.. it was fun.. got to wear formal.. here's a sample of me :D...
wa.. the other day did this presentation.. it was fun.. got to wear formal.. here's a sample of me :D...
tough one
At certain times, one must make tough decisions.
To make these tough decisions, one must be able to think hard and focus objectively.
If reason does not apply, let the heart guide.
These tough decisions will obviously lead to difficult actions and choices. This is expected.
Never falter from your choice because of a difficult action, it isn't worth it.
It will be like ending a 1000-mile journey just because you have to jump across a half-metre gap.
When asked if I have regretted doing what I have done,
I say with conviction, "No, I regret not,
"For if I were to be so easily faltered, I would not have done anything at all."
When asked why I am so sure about what will happen,
I reply without hesitation, "I don't know,
"I know that it will happen because the feel that I feel is so strong my nerves are breaking."
When told that I am foolish and cowardly,
I smile and I answer politely, "Why do you say that I am foolish and cowardly?
"If I am foolish, I would have pretended that I didn't feel a thing.
"If I am cowardly, I wouldn't have had the courage to pursue what I believed in."
A tough choice it is not.
To make these tough decisions, one must be able to think hard and focus objectively.
If reason does not apply, let the heart guide.
These tough decisions will obviously lead to difficult actions and choices. This is expected.
Never falter from your choice because of a difficult action, it isn't worth it.
It will be like ending a 1000-mile journey just because you have to jump across a half-metre gap.
When asked if I have regretted doing what I have done,
I say with conviction, "No, I regret not,
"For if I were to be so easily faltered, I would not have done anything at all."
When asked why I am so sure about what will happen,
I reply without hesitation, "I don't know,
"I know that it will happen because the feel that I feel is so strong my nerves are breaking."
When told that I am foolish and cowardly,
I smile and I answer politely, "Why do you say that I am foolish and cowardly?
"If I am foolish, I would have pretended that I didn't feel a thing.
"If I am cowardly, I wouldn't have had the courage to pursue what I believed in."
A tough choice it is not.
Lyrics - Backstreet Boys - All I Have To Give
Backstreet Boys - All I Have To Give
I don't know what he does to make you cry
But I'll be there to make you smile
I don't have a fancy car
To get to you I'd walk a thousand miles
I don't care if he buys you nice things
Does his gifts come from the heart?
I don't know
But if you were my girl
I'd make it so we'd never be apart
[Chorus:]
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I could live
I wish I could give the world to you
But love is all I have to give
When you talk (when you talk) does it seem like he's not
Even listening to a word you say?
That's okay babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away
Does he leave (does he leave) when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time?
Baby please
I'm on my knees
Praying for the day that you'll be mine
[Chorus]
[Bridge:]
To you... (hey girl) hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more inside
All the money in the world could never add up to all the love
I have inside... I love you
And I will give it to you
All I can give, all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give
[Chorus (3x)]
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you
But love is all I have to give... to you
I don't know what he does to make you cry
But I'll be there to make you smile
I don't have a fancy car
To get to you I'd walk a thousand miles
I don't care if he buys you nice things
Does his gifts come from the heart?
I don't know
But if you were my girl
I'd make it so we'd never be apart
[Chorus:]
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I could live
I wish I could give the world to you
But love is all I have to give
When you talk (when you talk) does it seem like he's not
Even listening to a word you say?
That's okay babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away
Does he leave (does he leave) when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time?
Baby please
I'm on my knees
Praying for the day that you'll be mine
[Chorus]
[Bridge:]
To you... (hey girl) hey girl, I don't want you to cry no more inside
All the money in the world could never add up to all the love
I have inside... I love you
And I will give it to you
All I can give, all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give
[Chorus (3x)]
But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you
But love is all I have to give... to you
Saturday, September 25, 2004
yawnzz...
Oops.. i slept from 6 till now.. tired sia... came back from project.
we went to lot1 den to bukit panjang plaza to do project in a bowling alley.. wa ok la.. abit noisy but v relax... den we almost go and diao this beng... wa liew he's so action lor... see liao wanna punch.. come in only make so much noise act like big shot lidat..
there was nothing to be done when i came back... den due to the fact that my mum was using the comp i went to sleep.. Grrr... wasted my whole day sian.zzzz....
we went to lot1 den to bukit panjang plaza to do project in a bowling alley.. wa ok la.. abit noisy but v relax... den we almost go and diao this beng... wa liew he's so action lor... see liao wanna punch.. come in only make so much noise act like big shot lidat..
there was nothing to be done when i came back... den due to the fact that my mum was using the comp i went to sleep.. Grrr... wasted my whole day sian.zzzz....
sigh saturday
just woke up... sigh... i feel like crap today... terrible and omg.. just screwed up...
sigh... why can't logic just give way to true feelings? why must people analyse these kinds of things using logic first, never considering the feelings that might be felt?
They say that time will tell... but time is but a scale, invented by humans and used to determine a length of time or period... life is a continuous flow... time will not change anything... if the intention is present, it will forever be, else it was never there in the first place...
if someone is loved, someone has been loved and also will be loved... but when that love ceases to exist or has cause to fade, it was never there or never meant to be in the first place...
when you look at ships sailing on the sea nearing the horizon, you will wonder about what you'll see if they reach the horizon of the sea.. What will happen is that they will disappear... They will go beyond the curve and the eye will not be able to see it anymore... ships are invented by humans...
Stars move away from each other in a constant velocity... What will happen when they reach the horizon of the universe? They do not disappear... they become stuck in their place as an image... staying there forever to remind others of their once temporary but important existence... if it was meant to exist it will forever exist, even if unmoving it is still existent...
the feelings are meant to stay....
you asked me if i'm treating you as a friend
you said that i wouldn't have done that if so
you said that you were not blowing your top
you said that you have already put up with it
you said that i know many people
you said that i easily forget
you said that i know not how much you love her
you said that you love her
you said that she's yours
you said that i should stay away from your her
sorry... the things you have said are either untrue or impossible...
i treat you as a friend but i'm sorry, my feelings overrule everything else of mine...
moving and deciding without rationalizing...
there may be logic later on, but right now the feelings are king...
how do you let go of someone whom you think about every hour
whose voice and face are so mesmerizing to the eye
whose character is one of such utter rarity
day by day the feeling grows, slowly and steadily like a tree
flowers will bloom one day, turning into fruits
when? i do not know, but surely they will come
hungry... gotta go for project soon... sigh...
sigh... why can't logic just give way to true feelings? why must people analyse these kinds of things using logic first, never considering the feelings that might be felt?
They say that time will tell... but time is but a scale, invented by humans and used to determine a length of time or period... life is a continuous flow... time will not change anything... if the intention is present, it will forever be, else it was never there in the first place...
if someone is loved, someone has been loved and also will be loved... but when that love ceases to exist or has cause to fade, it was never there or never meant to be in the first place...
when you look at ships sailing on the sea nearing the horizon, you will wonder about what you'll see if they reach the horizon of the sea.. What will happen is that they will disappear... They will go beyond the curve and the eye will not be able to see it anymore... ships are invented by humans...
Stars move away from each other in a constant velocity... What will happen when they reach the horizon of the universe? They do not disappear... they become stuck in their place as an image... staying there forever to remind others of their once temporary but important existence... if it was meant to exist it will forever exist, even if unmoving it is still existent...
the feelings are meant to stay....
you asked me if i'm treating you as a friend
you said that i wouldn't have done that if so
you said that you were not blowing your top
you said that you have already put up with it
you said that i know many people
you said that i easily forget
you said that i know not how much you love her
you said that you love her
you said that she's yours
you said that i should stay away from your her
sorry... the things you have said are either untrue or impossible...
i treat you as a friend but i'm sorry, my feelings overrule everything else of mine...
moving and deciding without rationalizing...
there may be logic later on, but right now the feelings are king...
how do you let go of someone whom you think about every hour
whose voice and face are so mesmerizing to the eye
whose character is one of such utter rarity
day by day the feeling grows, slowly and steadily like a tree
flowers will bloom one day, turning into fruits
when? i do not know, but surely they will come
hungry... gotta go for project soon... sigh...
Lyrics - Cagnet (Natalie Burks) - What Will I Do?
Cagnet (Natalie Burks) - What Will I Do?
I not very sure of the words to say
If only you know that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way the you want me to
I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you it will feel so right
If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
Ooooooo ...
I'll be yours, you'll be mine
Ooooooo ... what will I do? (X4)
If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
Ooooooo ...
I'll be yours, you'll be mine
Ooooooo ... what will I do? . . .
I not very sure of the words to say
If only you know that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way the you want me to
I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you it will feel so right
If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
Ooooooo ...
I'll be yours, you'll be mine
Ooooooo ... what will I do? (X4)
If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
Ooooooo ...
I'll be yours, you'll be mine
Ooooooo ... what will I do? . . .
Lyrics - 911 - Love sensation
911 - Love sensation
Don't go changing, rearrangingDon't go changing, rearranging
Hold on to a love sensation
If you ever go away
That would be my darkest day
We've been drawn together by love's chemistry
I was born to be by your side sure as the river meets the sea
We've only known each other for a little while, but you're my destiny
I would move all heaven and earth just to set you free
In lover's liberty, inject the chemistry
That's gonna move you, never gonna loose you
[Chorus]
Don't go changing, rearranging
Hold on to a love sensation
If you ever go away
That would be my darkest day
Lately I've been seeing a little doubt in your eyes
You used to call me everyday to say the things to keep me satisfied
I would move all heaven and earth just to set you free
In lover's liberty, inject the chemistry
That's gonna move you, never gonna loose you
[Chorus]
Don't go changing, rearranging
Hold on to a love sensation
If you ever go away
That would be my darkest day
Don't go changing, rearranging
Hold on to a love sensation
That's a power energy that only flows from you to me
I would move all heaven and earth just to set you free
In lover's liberty, inject the chemistry
That's gonna move you, never gonna loose you
[Chorus]
Don't go changing, rearranging
Hold on to a love sensation
If you ever go away
That would be my darkest day
Don't go changing, rearranging
Hold on to a love sensation
That's a power energy that only flows from you to me
Don't go changing, rearranging
Hold on to a love sensation
If you ever go away
That would be my darkest day
Lyrics - Rammstein - Engel
Rammstein - Engel
Wer zu Lebzeit gut auf Erden
wird nach dem Tod ein Engel werden
den Blick 'gen Himmel fragst du dann
warum man sie nicht sehen kann
erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn
kann man uns am Himmel sehn
wir haben Angst und sind allein
Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein
Sie leben hinterm Horizont
getrennt von uns unendlich weit
sie mssen sich an Sterne krallen (ganz fest)
damit sie nicht vom Himmel fallen
erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn
kann man uns am Himmel sehn
wir haben Angst und sind allein
Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein
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Translation:
Rammstein - Angel
Live in virtue, no desire
In the grave an angel's choir
You look to heaven and wonder why
No one can see them in the sky
Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
Angels can be seen in heaven's keep
Alone in fear they question why
Goddamn not an angel when I die
Angels live, they never die
Apart from us, behind the sky
They're fading souls who've turned to ice
So ashen white in paradise
Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
Angels can be seen in heaven's keep
Alone in fear they question why
Goddamn not an angel when I die
Goddamn an angel when I die
Heaven must be hell in the sky
Wer zu Lebzeit gut auf Erden
wird nach dem Tod ein Engel werden
den Blick 'gen Himmel fragst du dann
warum man sie nicht sehen kann
erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn
kann man uns am Himmel sehn
wir haben Angst und sind allein
Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein
Sie leben hinterm Horizont
getrennt von uns unendlich weit
sie mssen sich an Sterne krallen (ganz fest)
damit sie nicht vom Himmel fallen
erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn
kann man uns am Himmel sehn
wir haben Angst und sind allein
Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein
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Translation:
Rammstein - Angel
Live in virtue, no desire
In the grave an angel's choir
You look to heaven and wonder why
No one can see them in the sky
Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
Angels can be seen in heaven's keep
Alone in fear they question why
Goddamn not an angel when I die
Angels live, they never die
Apart from us, behind the sky
They're fading souls who've turned to ice
So ashen white in paradise
Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
Angels can be seen in heaven's keep
Alone in fear they question why
Goddamn not an angel when I die
Goddamn an angel when I die
Heaven must be hell in the sky
Tired tired ouch :P
ah... came back... mum's fine with the $300 already. She wants me to pay.. Ok I'll do it.. No choice.
Don't be sorry la.. it's not ur fault.. i called ma..
wa liew.. stupid me.. i forgot about the jumper when i passed u the hdisk... *bleah...* stupid jumper... must've jumped outta my hand... hahahahah.. ok lame... those who know what a jumper is may find it funny though... :P..
lame... stupid silly me... always trying to be funny...
miss ya..
though things are messed up, i know that they will resolve in the end...
船到桥头自然直...
Don't be sorry la.. it's not ur fault.. i called ma..
wa liew.. stupid me.. i forgot about the jumper when i passed u the hdisk... *bleah...* stupid jumper... must've jumped outta my hand... hahahahah.. ok lame... those who know what a jumper is may find it funny though... :P..
lame... stupid silly me... always trying to be funny...
miss ya..
though things are messed up, i know that they will resolve in the end...
船到桥头自然直...
Lyrics - Moffatts - If Life Is So Short
Moffatts - If Life Is So Short
Isn't it funny
How times seems to slip away
So fast
One minute you're happy
The other you're sad
But if you give me one more chance
To show my love for you is true
I'll stand by your side
Your whole life trough
If life is short
Why won't you let me love you
Before we run out of time
If love is so strong
Why won't you take the chance
Before our time has come
If life is so short
If life is so short
Love is a word that explains
How I feel for you
And when you're in my arms
All my dreams come true
And when you're not around
You can't hardly see
These tears that I'm crying
Now are for you to be with me
If life is short
Why won't you let me love you
Before we run out of time
If love is so strong
Why won't you take the chance
Before our time has come
If life is so short
If life is so short
Isn't it funny
How times seems to slip away
So fast
One minute you're happy
The other you're sad
But if you give me one more chance
To show my love for you is true
I'll stand by your side
Your whole life trough
If life is short
Why won't you let me love you
Before we run out of time
If love is so strong
Why won't you take the chance
Before our time has come
If life is so short
If life is so short
Love is a word that explains
How I feel for you
And when you're in my arms
All my dreams come true
And when you're not around
You can't hardly see
These tears that I'm crying
Now are for you to be with me
If life is short
Why won't you let me love you
Before we run out of time
If love is so strong
Why won't you take the chance
Before our time has come
If life is so short
If life is so short
Friday, September 24, 2004
Mid-semester test so far...
so far my mid-semester test has been going well...
Maths - 60/60
Database Management Systems - 93.5/100
Unix & Windows Operating Systems - A-Distinction.
I hope I'll do as well for the rest of the papers too... :)...
Clarence
Maths - 60/60
Database Management Systems - 93.5/100
Unix & Windows Operating Systems - A-Distinction.
I hope I'll do as well for the rest of the papers too... :)...
Clarence
Lyrics - 我们的爱 - f.i.r. - F.I.R.(飞儿乐团)
我们的爱 - f.i.r. - F.I.R.(飞儿乐团)
回忆里想起模糊的小时候
云朵漂浮在蓝蓝的天空
那时候的你说
要和我手牵手
一起走到时间的尽头
从此以后我都不敢抬头看
彷佛我的天空失去了颜色
从那一天起
我忘记了呼吸
眼泪啊永远不再
不再哭泣
我们的爱
过了就不再回来
直到现在
我还默默的等待
我们的爱
我明白
以变成你的负担
只是永远
我都放不开
最后的温暖
你给的温暖
不要再问你是否爱我
现在我想要自由的天空
远离开这被捆绑的世界
不再寂寞
回忆里想起模糊的小时候
云朵漂浮在蓝蓝的天空
那时候的你说
要和我手牵手
一起走到时间的尽头
从此以后我都不敢抬头看
彷佛我的天空失去了颜色
从那一天起
我忘记了呼吸
眼泪啊永远不再
不再哭泣
我们的爱
过了就不再回来
直到现在
我还默默的等待
我们的爱
我明白
以变成你的负担
只是永远
我都放不开
最后的温暖
你给的温暖
不要再问你是否爱我
现在我想要自由的天空
远离开这被捆绑的世界
不再寂寞
Je t'aime
The hole which I have dugged was never intentional.
It just came by so naturally.
It was as natural as the trees which grew outside my window.
I fell, straight down into this hole on the ground, dugged not by me.
Someone grabbed my arm.
"Stop!" He said, "You'll burn yourself bad."
I flinged his arm off and fell again.
Another one grabbed my arm.
"No!" He said, "You'll regret it!"
I tugged my arm away from his grasp and fell.
Finally, I stopped falling. I found myself on a ground made of rock.
In front of me lay a hole large enough for two.
Footsteps, I heard.
Turning, I saw you. You stepped closer.
"I fell down a hole and now I'm here."
"Me too."
Holding your hand, we jumped into the hole on the ground.
The fall may be smooth or rough.
We may clear it easily or we may be cut by rocks along the sides.
Will we hit the bottom with a loud thud?
Will this hole be a bottomless one?
A bottomless hole is what I feel it is.
One which may be fraught with happiness, sadness, anger and even pain.
It may not be a smooth fall, but I'll promise to hold you tight.
I'll protect you from the cuts; the rocks may scratch you but I'll be the person who bleeds.
I'll be there to feel your sadness, to carry your burdens for you.
I'll always be there to soothe your anger, for I will fan your flames of anger ever so gently they will calm down by themselves.
And I'll always share with you my happiness, I'll let you know how it's like to be truly happy.
Take this leap of faith with me.
It just came by so naturally.
It was as natural as the trees which grew outside my window.
I fell, straight down into this hole on the ground, dugged not by me.
Someone grabbed my arm.
"Stop!" He said, "You'll burn yourself bad."
I flinged his arm off and fell again.
Another one grabbed my arm.
"No!" He said, "You'll regret it!"
I tugged my arm away from his grasp and fell.
Finally, I stopped falling. I found myself on a ground made of rock.
In front of me lay a hole large enough for two.
Footsteps, I heard.
Turning, I saw you. You stepped closer.
"I fell down a hole and now I'm here."
"Me too."
Holding your hand, we jumped into the hole on the ground.
The fall may be smooth or rough.
We may clear it easily or we may be cut by rocks along the sides.
Will we hit the bottom with a loud thud?
Will this hole be a bottomless one?
A bottomless hole is what I feel it is.
One which may be fraught with happiness, sadness, anger and even pain.
It may not be a smooth fall, but I'll promise to hold you tight.
I'll protect you from the cuts; the rocks may scratch you but I'll be the person who bleeds.
I'll be there to feel your sadness, to carry your burdens for you.
I'll always be there to soothe your anger, for I will fan your flames of anger ever so gently they will calm down by themselves.
And I'll always share with you my happiness, I'll let you know how it's like to be truly happy.
Take this leap of faith with me.
Thursday, September 23, 2004
the shock of the 23rd.
wow.. on my way out today, my mum called me...
"Oh, why haven't come home yet?"
"Orh, cuz I going out for dinner ma."
"Orh, when you come back you are gonna die. Your hp and home phone bill added is S$300."
"..." *thinks : OMFG*
it's scary how telecoms work.. 2 weeks of chatting on the phone and it's $300 omg I'm suing singtel...
*****
I miss you... I'm like hanging off a cliff now...
I need you to pull me up... I need you to be there for and with me...
I don't care about what the world says...
Even if the world condemns us, they are insignificant, we are important, everyone else are just supporting actors in our movie...
"Oh, why haven't come home yet?"
"Orh, cuz I going out for dinner ma."
"Orh, when you come back you are gonna die. Your hp and home phone bill added is S$300."
"..." *thinks : OMFG*
it's scary how telecoms work.. 2 weeks of chatting on the phone and it's $300 omg I'm suing singtel...
*****
I miss you... I'm like hanging off a cliff now...
I need you to pull me up... I need you to be there for and with me...
I don't care about what the world says...
Even if the world condemns us, they are insignificant, we are important, everyone else are just supporting actors in our movie...
quickie
Harlow... Today got special request. Someone wants me to say, "Jess Rox". So...
Jess Rox...
but hor.. i don't think so leh.. cuz hor.. she's more stony than rocky.. hahahaha :P...
Sigh, I'm at home. My stupid leather shoe just had to break :'(... So I'm at home at lunch time haha... i changed into informal le.. sianz... on phone wif someone crazy ahahaa... :P...
k la tats all :)
:)
Jess Rox...
but hor.. i don't think so leh.. cuz hor.. she's more stony than rocky.. hahahaha :P...
Sigh, I'm at home. My stupid leather shoe just had to break :'(... So I'm at home at lunch time haha... i changed into informal le.. sianz... on phone wif someone crazy ahahaa... :P...
k la tats all :)
:)
hangover without alcohol
today is terrible. first, I lost to the top scorer in DBMS (Database Management Systems) by half a mark. WTf.. I got 93.5/100. Not good enough... Pls lor.. I didn't top the class, that's substandard. hahaha j/k :P.
thanks to all who detected that i'm unhappy today. no, it's not about the DBMS marks. It's about something more complicated.. But i'm really fine and there's no need to worry for me.
Ferina : dun need to thank me. u worked hard yourself..
Boon Tat : Great job on the dbms paper, all the best for ur other papers.
Jia Rui : aiyah. yao mou gao chor wor... dim gai exam marks kom low ge ah?
me ignore don't
please.
life of mine will shatter
thanks to all who detected that i'm unhappy today. no, it's not about the DBMS marks. It's about something more complicated.. But i'm really fine and there's no need to worry for me.
Ferina : dun need to thank me. u worked hard yourself..
Boon Tat : Great job on the dbms paper, all the best for ur other papers.
Jia Rui : aiyah. yao mou gao chor wor... dim gai exam marks kom low ge ah?
me ignore don't
please.
life of mine will shatter
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
boring tuesday evening
sigh... I still haven't eaten my dinner yet.. It's already 7:30pm... Yawnz... tiring sia... I still haven't done my piano homework :'(... sian leh... I wanna go home.. still in school doing my TBCM project... we're left with the presentation speech and we'll be done...
sigh.. miss her sia... wonder what she's doing... keep thinking of her...
sigh.. miss her sia... wonder what she's doing... keep thinking of her...
Lyrics - 欧得洋 - 孤单北半球
欧得洋 - 孤单北半球
用我的晚安陪你 吃早餐 记得把想念
存进扑满 我 望着满天星在闪
听牛郎对织女说要勇敢
别怕我们在地球的两端 看我的问候
骑着魔毯 飞 用光速飞到 你面前
要你能看到十字星有北极星作伴
少了我的手臂当枕头 你习不习惯
你的望远镜望不到我北半球的孤单
太平洋的潮水跟着地球来回旋转
我会耐心地等 随时欢迎你靠岸
少了我的怀抱当暖炉 你习不习惯
E给你照片看不到我北半球的孤单
世界再大两颗真心就能 互相取暖
想念不会偷懒 我的梦通通给你保管
1 Corinthians 13:4-13
13:4 Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful;
13:5 it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;
13:6 it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right.
13:7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
13:8 Love never ends; as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.
13:9 For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect;
13:10 but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away.
13:11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became a man, I gave up childish ways.
13:12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood.
13:13 So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:4-13
13:4 爱是恒久忍耐、又有恩慈．爱是不嫉妒．爱是不自夸．不张狂．
13:5 不作害羞的事．不求自己的益处．不轻易发怒．不计算人的恶．
13:6 不喜欢不义．只喜欢真理．
13:7 凡事包容．凡事相信．凡事盼望．凡事忍耐。
13:8 爱是永不止息．先知讲道之能、终必归于无有．说方言之能、终必停止、知识也终必归于无有。
13:9 我们现在所知道的有限、先知所讲的也有限．
13:10 等那完全的来到、这有限的必归于无有了。
13:11 我作孩子的时候、话语像孩子、心思像孩子、意念像孩子．既成了人、就把孩子的事丢弃了。
13:12 我们如今彷彿对着镜子观看、模糊不清．〔模糊不清原文作如同猜谜〕到那时、就要面对面了．我如今所知道的有限．到那时就全知道、如同主知道我一样。
13:13 如今常存的有信、有望、有爱、这三样、其中最大的是爱。
歌 林 多 前 书 13:4-13
13:5 it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;
13:6 it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right.
13:7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
13:8 Love never ends; as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.
13:9 For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect;
13:10 but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away.
13:11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became a man, I gave up childish ways.
13:12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood.
13:13 So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:4-13
13:4 爱是恒久忍耐、又有恩慈．爱是不嫉妒．爱是不自夸．不张狂．
13:5 不作害羞的事．不求自己的益处．不轻易发怒．不计算人的恶．
13:6 不喜欢不义．只喜欢真理．
13:7 凡事包容．凡事相信．凡事盼望．凡事忍耐。
13:8 爱是永不止息．先知讲道之能、终必归于无有．说方言之能、终必停止、知识也终必归于无有。
13:9 我们现在所知道的有限、先知所讲的也有限．
13:10 等那完全的来到、这有限的必归于无有了。
13:11 我作孩子的时候、话语像孩子、心思像孩子、意念像孩子．既成了人、就把孩子的事丢弃了。
13:12 我们如今彷彿对着镜子观看、模糊不清．〔模糊不清原文作如同猜谜〕到那时、就要面对面了．我如今所知道的有限．到那时就全知道、如同主知道我一样。
13:13 如今常存的有信、有望、有爱、这三样、其中最大的是爱。
歌 林 多 前 书 13:4-13
Monday, September 20, 2004
i'm a loser.
i'm a flirt i'm a bastard i'm a loser i suck i am a screwed-up moron...
well-deserved words for a well-deserved loser.
well-deserved words for a well-deserved loser.
SIGH...
Sigh... i dunno dunno dunno... what can i say... i'm hurt.. but why... i'm just hurt.. k i'm hurt.. u may think i'm stupid.. you may think, see what i told u? but i dunt know... k i'm just really really hurt... yea sure.. i know many girls.. i can forget anyone easily... fine... if u think so den the hell i will.. k i hate this... i don't want this to happen... why do i feel the way i feel... my eyes are swelling with tears... omg.. i cant do this.. my family members will see.. and they'll question... but what the hell... does anyone even understand me... sigh... yea of course.. how can i ever compare to someone who's been with u for 2 years... omg... omg... i pain i feel.... omg... oh, no, i'm not supposed to feel pain right? neither am i supposed to feel hurt.. why? cuz it's only for a few weeks? cuz i know alot of ppl and it fucking easy to know others? omg... who the devil gave him that idea... omg.. my feelings are so overwhelming now.. ok lor.. fine lor.. i dun know le lor.. what also can what also anything.. i'm not impt forget me.. it's all my fault.. i came inbetween.. kill me.. k i dont deserve to live... i miss u ever so much.. i knew i may get hurt but i pulled my courage up.. fine... i dunno... i still feel for u... omg... how can i ever forget u... sigh..........
am i really such a bastard on the outside? omg.. nobody trusts me.. everyone thinks i'm popular.. no i'm not... omg i'm such a loser.. i don't wanna be like this.. pls.. omg.... save me... GOD...
am i really such a bastard on the outside? omg.. nobody trusts me.. everyone thinks i'm popular.. no i'm not... omg i'm such a loser.. i don't wanna be like this.. pls.. omg.... save me... GOD...
the wow feeling?
i was like.. what in the world just happened? i'm really surprised. and this is really weird. but i'm liking every second of it ^_^.
weird
weird
Sunday, September 19, 2004
the Long Day
today's been long sia.. gonna blog in casual speak since ANT doesn't like it :P. aiyah.. dunno la.. today ar.. so unproductive.. like never do anything lidat... so sian lor..
i still have mac manual and crap to complete i am so sian.. SIAN SIAN SIAN...
i dun like all this... i dowan to do...
i still have mac manual and crap to complete i am so sian.. SIAN SIAN SIAN...
i dun like all this... i dowan to do...
thinking soberly
The time is 8.41am. Yawnz...
It has been five hours and forty two minutes since I woke up in the morning at three...
Omg, I haven't finished my Mac manual... It should have been submitted on Wednesday!! U_U... I am gonna rush it soon.
After which I am going to see if I can do anything for my blog.
Hmm.. OK, I guess I better get going.
Sayounara...
さようなら。。。
It has been five hours and forty two minutes since I woke up in the morning at three...
Omg, I haven't finished my Mac manual... It should have been submitted on Wednesday!! U_U... I am gonna rush it soon.
After which I am going to see if I can do anything for my blog.
Hmm.. OK, I guess I better get going.
Sayounara...
さようなら。。。
first post!! long as hell divided by a million.
Ahh.. finally another blog since the one i deleted at the end of last year (2003)..
Today, I woke up at around 3am thanks to the fact that I have dawned on Friday (17th Sept). It was my birthday and boy was I glad of it.
I went out with my group of friends, namely WenQuan, Ferina, Siti, WenXiong, Jess and JunJie. First, most of us met up at the Heeren's. Then, we proceeded to Cineleisure to wait for the others in Long John Silver's.
While waiting, we decided that it would be a great idea to play with UNO cards. LOL. WenQuan described it as, "A stunt in Orchard Road." We played for quite a long while, after which I helped to "force" JunJie to win because I was terribly bored of the game. ^_^.
After WenXiong and Jess arrived, we ate. After everyone was full, we went to get movie tickets for the movie "Ghost". It started an hour after the time at when we bought the tickets so during that hour, we went to take photos outside Takashimaya.
At 7.30pm, all of us except Siti went to watch "Ghost". It wasn't very scary. It was more of shocking than scary.
After the movie, there was this huge fuss about whether or not any of us would be dawning throughout the night. At first, we were hoping for a 4 persons dawn but it ended up as a 2 persons dawn. I dawned with Jess at the East Coast Park. It was fun, and we chatted through the night, and I swear that if she ever tickles me again, I'll kill her. Muahahahahhahahaaha. :P
The next day, which was yesterday, Jess and I went to have breakfast at the Ya Kun at the Parkway Parade shopping centre but the main shopping centre wasn't even open. -.-".. Then I had to rush off for a dental appointment at 9.15am. I arrived at the National Dental Centre at 9.45am (great, I'm late like 10 times in a row :P). After that, I came back home and forced myself to stay awake till around late afternoon, after which I dozed off and woke up only three hours forty-five minutes ago.
Yawnz... I will be eating breakfast soon. It will probably be instant noodles. Ha. What a healthy life. :P.. That's all.. Ciaoz...
this feeling i feel is one which i have never felt since years ago
what should i do and how should i
i have never been good at words
i hope you understand my feelings
what will be done i don't know
but i hope that it will be well
Je ne vais pas bien.
Je ne sais pas quoi faire.
Today, I woke up at around 3am thanks to the fact that I have dawned on Friday (17th Sept). It was my birthday and boy was I glad of it.
I went out with my group of friends, namely WenQuan, Ferina, Siti, WenXiong, Jess and JunJie. First, most of us met up at the Heeren's. Then, we proceeded to Cineleisure to wait for the others in Long John Silver's.
While waiting, we decided that it would be a great idea to play with UNO cards. LOL. WenQuan described it as, "A stunt in Orchard Road." We played for quite a long while, after which I helped to "force" JunJie to win because I was terribly bored of the game. ^_^.
After WenXiong and Jess arrived, we ate. After everyone was full, we went to get movie tickets for the movie "Ghost". It started an hour after the time at when we bought the tickets so during that hour, we went to take photos outside Takashimaya.
At 7.30pm, all of us except Siti went to watch "Ghost". It wasn't very scary. It was more of shocking than scary.
After the movie, there was this huge fuss about whether or not any of us would be dawning throughout the night. At first, we were hoping for a 4 persons dawn but it ended up as a 2 persons dawn. I dawned with Jess at the East Coast Park. It was fun, and we chatted through the night, and I swear that if she ever tickles me again, I'll kill her. Muahahahahhahahaaha. :P
The next day, which was yesterday, Jess and I went to have breakfast at the Ya Kun at the Parkway Parade shopping centre but the main shopping centre wasn't even open. -.-".. Then I had to rush off for a dental appointment at 9.15am. I arrived at the National Dental Centre at 9.45am (great, I'm late like 10 times in a row :P). After that, I came back home and forced myself to stay awake till around late afternoon, after which I dozed off and woke up only three hours forty-five minutes ago.
Yawnz... I will be eating breakfast soon. It will probably be instant noodles. Ha. What a healthy life. :P.. That's all.. Ciaoz...
this feeling i feel is one which i have never felt since years ago
what should i do and how should i
i have never been good at words
i hope you understand my feelings
what will be done i don't know
but i hope that it will be well
Je ne vais pas bien.
Je ne sais pas quoi faire.
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